It's not a bird, not a plane it's my heart and it's going gone away my only weakness is you, only reason is you,every minute with you i feel like i can do anything going gone away in love...you changed my whole life"
I cross out hearts because i don't have one
unless he is willing to take that chance with me
I can feel you all around me thickening the air i breathe.....
Read between the lines
He is what I want
I want what he is
Its difficult when LOVE gets involved
Love gets difficult when its involved
True feelings for HIM were hidden away
For him true feelings were hidden away
... no read between my lines the message i've tried to send to you
different person different case
it's not over but It Is
It never really started
Scenario:
She lays on her bed & stares at the ceiling. You have no idea what goes through her head. There are empty thoughts some sweet, some funny. They're sad, lonely. Fairytales, Nightmares
Pause
... Nightmares?
That's exactly what they are. Only difference is she can't wake up and whisk them all away. They are her inner demons eating her alive, consuming every last drop of composure she managed to salvage from her fall. Technically not a physical fall but that majorlly emotional fracture that left her open, vulnerable to todo el mundo
There was once a time when she could say she had no guilty conscience but those days are too far gone. She realized her mistakes tried to push them to the back of her mind but remained, married to her inner demons those too devouring her sanity, devouring her....wholey
Scenario 2:
It felt like Anne Boleyn vs. Jane Seymour.
She bore your fuckri like a child sprung from the womb,
she changed you, morphed you into someone she could cope with better, unknowing the new you would cause her bitter end.
She caught you...more than once.
Infidelity
something she herself exposed you to but au contraire you too beat her to her own game.
&& then came the last memoirs all of misery till her end had come and you decapitated her. In her case not physically (although the pain was so gruesome you might as well have) you decapitated her from your life
& she hasn't been the same since...
and i'm done i've said all i need to say interpret however you wish just remember decisions, decisions, make the best and life,.... life certainly will move in favor of
YOU!
This is •◊›› £ittle Mi$$ Øbsessive
with regret i say this is NOT a
Criticism of...Me
but quite frankly an
Expression of...Me
Written by: L'Jai Perry 2 years ago about ..... i won't even say :-|
<3
So maybe my view of perfectin was wrong!? Prince charming DIED!!! maybe.....
Or maybe we're made to believe "happily ever after" exists so that to others we seem inncoent.. i'm not sure theese are just my questions.
The straightforward epitomy that one day you'll find your own strikes me as appealing thought warns me that many obstacles i have to pass. I am burdended with the weight of the world on my shoulders with no one to understand my pain this world only brings discomfort without joy, pain and no love, war & never any peace.....all i have left is piece of mind never my own opinion whilst someone else views are opposed upon me....Will you ever understand what i go through?
Brought into this world to live....grew up looking for love.....found the love and started living.....lost the love because i wasnt giving......i'm just living to love & loving to live..
&& you?
your just here for that purpose if you understand what i mean.
I never thought we would fail just thought it needed some mending , but now we're just a fairytale without the happy ending.
0 My hear can't rest until ...
♫
I can forgive maybe, i can't forget but life has a way of showing thing to yu in retrospect. The choices you make do determine your future.
&& these are no longer tears of sorrow. They're tears of accomplishment.
It took a year!
a year to make the same mistakes repeatedly, a year of oxymorons...
, a year to mature into a self opinionated individual who doesn't give a fuck if you dissaprove of this note. One who knows that its not everyone that you meet that will like or acceot you or even r.e.s.p.e.c.t you. But if they can't respect you they don't deserve your t.r.u.s.t
. NB* keep your Private life obviously ...PRIVATE
and if someone feels the need to 'Loud Daht Up' fuck 'em; realize your limitations where certain people are concerned.
I hate it, when your past suddenly comes back to you when you don't need it.. Gets you caught off guard you loose your breath, your speech, your mind is spinning, your strength... GONE, it feels like they are still in your life, instead of just a distant confusing saddening memory. But then, *WHAM* someone says.. "oh yeah I know him! How do you know him?!" And what are you to do, but explain how.. and when.. and how.. and try to keep in the tears that sting your dry eyes, that trickle down into your open and scarred heart, making you feel the pain and sorrow all over again, making your relive it, making you feel it all over again, making your mind go through the same situation, wishing that life wasn't so cruel, but know that that is just the way life is, and you go on loving your life.. you know your in a better place now, than you were then with him.. You fight back the ever growing tears and you swallow your dignity and you move on. Kissing goodbye to your heart's holder, with the graces he deserves, knowing that you <3 him ...with every single part of your being. That he was the true one that you are supposed to be with. This is how life worked out, in it's crazy crazy ways, he could have been the one.
I say FUCK THAT
THE MASK THAT HIDES THE INNER ME
Ok, I feel better.
"I miss you! I want to scream.. I want to scream it into space. I want to scream at you so badly && show you what it feels like to loose someone you care about. Hopefully my words will echo and travel to you, where you are standing at the other end of that deep black hole!"
-Gretest Scenario!!-
You say hello, inside your screaming "I love you" You say goodnight to him, in your mind I'm sleeping with...him . [don't get smotty now peeps]
He pulls away from your car crash of a heart And I don't know why...
But he gave me the best mixtape you ever had and even all the bad songs weren't so bad
you just wish there was so much more than that
About You & He
You talk to her and it burns her like the sun ;He speaks to her, and says that you he feels like she's the one.
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I'm feeling You don't know? You'll never know. don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes her heart when you talk shit about her. You weren't like that before you know!
She says: "We're not friends and I'm not the same person"
From back in the day in the back of the theatre
That you thought was steamy
She wants to whisper " I'm not supposed to like you this much" but instead she says:
"Nope, I can't find the words cause I lost 'em the minute they fell out of my mouth"
And it's
fuck this let's get drunk and listen to probably...
the best mix this world could have
And even though i'm starstruck it ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that -about you && possibly ....me
Word is on the street that fire in your heart is out..
All the roads we have to walk are winding..
There are many things, I'd like to say to you, but I don't know how..
Maybe your going to be the one that saves me..
Or maybe the one that derranges me
Kinshasa D. once said to me: "the whole meaning of L-O-V-E is that you should be happy once the person you love is happy....even if it's not with you."
I've lost the uncomfortability of going out and seeing you it no longer phases me. as you said to me many months ago
"You do your ting , && I do mines"
I'm so happy for you baby i
Why should my heart and soul keep going on, why should my eyes re-read the words that make my heart free and then sink back. Why should I even torture myself..
rehab perhaps???
NOT AT ALL
Welcome to ME! :)
Not everyone's PERFECT but at least I AM ME
nothing more
never less
L.O.V.E __ M.E.H
Fr: the re-formed wildahz [ahhm after hilel ting i'm not so sure] jkz Jai<3
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