My hear can't rest until ...

♫

I can forgive maybe, i can't forget but life has a way of showing thing to yu in retrospect. The choices you make do determine your future.
&& these are no longer tears of sorrow. They're tears of accomplishment.

It took a year!
a year to make the same mistakes repeatedly, a year of oxymorons...
in the morning i was yelling "I Love you" but at night you were saying I Don't Want You

, a year to mature into a self opinionated individual who doesn't give a fuck if you dissaprove of this note. One who knows that its not everyone that you meet that will like or acceot you or even r.e.s.p.e.c.t you. But if they can't respect you they don't deserve your t.r.u.s.t
. NB* keep your Private life obviously ...PRIVATE
and if someone feels the need to 'Loud Daht Up' fuck 'em; realize your limitations where certain people are concerned.

I hate it, when your past suddenly comes back to you when you don't need it.. Gets you caught off guard you loose your breath, your speech, your mind is spinning, your strength... GONE, it feels like they are still in your life, instead of just a distant confusing saddening memory. But then, *WHAM* someone says.. "oh yeah I know him! How do you know him?!" And what are you to do, but explain how.. and when.. and how.. and try to keep in the tears that sting your dry eyes, that trickle down into your open and scarred heart, making you feel the pain and sorrow all over again, making your relive it, making you feel it all over again, making your mind go through the same situation, wishing that life wasn't so cruel, but know that that is just the way life is, and you go on loving your life.. you know your in a better place now, than you were then with him.. You fight back the ever growing tears and you swallow your dignity and you move on. Kissing goodbye to your heart's holder, with the graces he deserves, knowing that you <3 him ...with every single part of your being. That he was the true one that you are supposed to be with. This is how life worked out, in it's crazy crazy ways, he could have been the one.
I say FUCK THAT

THE MASK THAT HIDES THE INNER ME

Ok, I feel better.

"I miss you! I want to scream.. I want to scream it into space. I want to scream at you so badly && show you what it feels like to loose someone you care about. Hopefully my words will echo and travel to you, where you are standing at the other end of that deep black hole!"

-Gretest Scenario!!-

You say hello, inside your screaming "I love you" You say goodnight to him, in your mind I'm sleeping with...him . [don't get smotty now peeps]
He pulls away from your car crash of a heart And I don't know why...
But he gave me the best mixtape you ever had and even all the bad songs weren't so bad
you just wish there was so much more than that

About You & He
You talk to her and it burns her like the sun ;He speaks to her, and says that you he feels like she's the one.
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I'm feeling You don't know? You'll never know. don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes her heart when you talk shit about her. You weren't like that before you know!
She says: "We're not friends and I'm not the same person"
From back in the day in the back of the theatre
That you thought was steamy
She wants to whisper " I'm not supposed to like you this much" but instead she says:
"Nope, I can't find the words cause I lost 'em the minute they fell out of my mouth"
And it's not love and she's not in it, so don't give me your lips so i can peck them
fuck this let's get drunk and listen to probably...
the best mix this world could have
And even though i'm starstruck it ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that -about you && possibly ....me

Word is on the street that fire in your heart is out..
All the roads we have to walk are winding..
There are many things, I'd like to say to you, but I don't know how..
Maybe your going to be the one that saves me..

Or maybe the one that derranges me

Kinshasa D. once said to me: "the whole meaning of L-O-V-E is that you should be happy once the person you love is happy....even if it's not with you."

I've lost the uncomfortability of going out and seeing you it no longer phases me. as you said to me many months ago
"You do your ting , && I do mines"
I'm so happy for you baby i coud cry

Why should my heart and soul keep going on, why should my eyes re-read the words that make my heart free and then sink back. Why should I even torture myself..

rehab perhaps???

NOT AT ALL

Welcome to ME! :)

Not everyone's PERFECT but at least i try I've Tried...and since it's not working at least i know i'm being real

I AM ME

nothing more
never less

L.O.V.E __ M.E.H

Fr: the re-formed wildahz [ahhm after hilel ting i'm not so sure] jkz Jai<3