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Look Pon We- Vybz Kartel ft. Russian

Like A G6 (Remix)- Vybz Kartel

WTP (Remix)- Vybz Kartel

Tattoo Time- Vybz Kartel

All Out- Vybz Kartel

Tun Up The Fuck- Vybz Kartel

Weh Di Bleaching Fah- Vybz Kartel

REGARDS!!!

0 I Know You've Got Your Girl & I Don't Need You Cus' I'm The Shit

You won't call and you won't admit

The lies you spin for your power trip
And I just can't take you seriously
When all you send is a text to me
So I'll be gone when the morning comes
Let's not pretend it's love

So I'll see you next Tuesday
If I ever get desperate
Or I'm so beyond faded
Just said I'll see you next Tuesday
Kinda nice how this morning I would sit around waiting
And I'm not just being cold I'm just watching you pretend
Like your heart is on your sleeve when I know you have a girlfriend 


I don't want anything from this 
I got your number, don't call me I'll call you if i need a hit
i don't need no drama. 
I know you got your girl & i don't need a dude I'm the Shit.

Its not everyday you find yourself at peace with the world. Nor do you find someone on your level that can make you happy & confident all at the same time. I admit my confidence sucks but i play it down quite well...
I ACT quite confident but hey Im the one that lies in bed at night & has those silly thoughts about wether or not people take me seriously.
Its a crazy thing of course. It's quite ridiculous that people will forever judge me by what's on the outside but not based on the thoughts of my heart that although i'm screaming from the depths of my inside i can never put into place because of my lack off confidence...

so the whole "maaaw Hot Gyal"... facade.
not trying to say im fake or anything cus im not but hey you have to TRY to be confident in order to achieve it dont you?
I haven't done this in awhile but i'm still mentally deep.
WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU MOTHERFUCKING GET!
my views on life change on a monthly basis. i think its quite bad actually that there is no amount of consistency in my life. not that its my fault. Whose fault is it? I have no clue i just know that one day it needs to change.
my air off being 100% commited to NOT BEING COMMITED. ;)
never did think commitment was my thing
relationships suck! actually!
im not wild anymore but i like my freedom hopefully i don't get too carried away but i must say i may not learn from MY OWN MISTAKES but i have learned from other people's which is better than nothing at all isn't it.

I am timid & I am over sensitive I am the definition of lonliness
I am tired & defensless
You take me in your arms & I want to fold into you
I have insecurities can You show me I am beautiful?

Love me or leave me just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy I just need you to see the real me
Take me, free me, get into the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental & I have NUFF imperfections
I am VERY OVERLY emotional
I am HIGHLY unpredictable
I LOVE BEING naked
I am vulnerable
I am 5 weeks away from being a woman && I am opening up to you so can you open up to me?
P L E A S E


Love me dont leave me
I'm not needy, I NEED you to see me
See through to the core of me
No more pretending

Now If I stood before you with my heart in my hands asking you to take me just the way that I am what would you do?

Please to lay me down in your arms
Do you actally know the real me?
Will you make me feel safe from all this harm

temperamental.imperfect.emotional
no more pretending!
Got It ?






this was an old 2009™ redrafted&updone (:

0 I Never Thought My Mind Would Go Back To This But Here I AM

'Hidden behind 2 scars'

Honesty is the best policy for once this is what I think
How can I decide what's right with you clouding up my mind(8)

Don't lie to me anymore and let me feel that somethings there that wasn't there before.
Now that I've started erasing you
Throwing those old memories out
To move on & start something new
I'm throwing away those memories my dear
Darling Don't lie to me

Don't

Watch me Breathe in slowly now
don't lie to me
Inhale the truth I plead For you to tell me
your my only hope
Don't lead me on anymore
My Mind is set on this failure The path i chose when you Told me you loved me
Told me no its ok to be who I was
So Take your time to b normal with me cus I'm only dying Patiently I kneel here dying Cursing bcus this 'love is blind' 
Deep inside I wait for for the pain to subsidise
Why you got me into this mess that devoured me
What you did to get me into this mess
Lies untruths and deceit
Your actions keep promising come back to me
Brings me back to the thought of how did we end up here when before I knew you so well. So u tell me one thing then 3mths later "I miss u" blah blah jus cus u want a link? Well u got what you asked for another year starts & its back to Ignordom you don't see me so I dnt see u
I'm hoping to rectify this soon

Call it Reacquaintance Therapy infact but who am I fooling absence makes the heart grow fonder but ur alwys there so does that mean I'm not fond of u or that ur charm has faded and uncovered the haggard bystander underneath that fair facade

Yes, I made the choice
For him, my feelings will stay
But I don't deserve to to lose my sanity or pride in this way
If you think that what you've done is right, well then You're a fool!
Think again!
Is this love?
Is this how I should learn to be happy
Never dreamed That fantasies could be so surreal
I was told Ev'ry day of my life
His arms should be where my heart is
My heart's far, far away
Love is too
Is this what I must learn to believe in Try to findSomething good in this tragic situation Just in case I should stay here forever sad in this empty place that won't be easy he knows the reason why My heart's far, far away love is a lie
What I'd give to return To the life that I knew lately But I know now that I can't with All my problems by Am I here for a day or forever?
Shut away As my life has been altered one can change again Build higher walls around me Change ev'ry lock and key Nothing lasts, nothing holdsAll of me My heart's far, far away loved and free.
He was so sweet and oh so kind but now he's crude and coarse & unrefined :(

What a puzzle to the rest of me you are </3

0 Every Sain† has a P a s t && every S!nner has a F u t u r e.

Our "thing" is stronger than any lie you can tell me

He knows my heart and that's the hard part

His roots are dug up, so you might as well give up

I see your intentions, You can't handle the truth

He let you go a long time ago Now it's time to get over it and turn him loose

Honey Girl, You so pretty, like a butterfly so .... fly away now get what you deserve

I been trying to be a lady up to now, don't know how much more I can take before i bust some blood vessels in my head

They got a place for people like you it's called the Mental institute

You better chill, Chill and I mean it

You better back down before you get smacked down 

you better chill

You need to relax your mind

He's soon gonna be your man and nobody else's

You're getting in the way of what I'm feeling

You Need to Chilll but I need to get over it

Everything was beautiful between me and him & here comes you and your big mouth talking about me

Telling him that you keep seeing me in your dreams Saying i'm gonna cheat but you know that's a lie

You keep lying about me

You Better Chill cus he's not worth it. 

Slowly surely, I walk away from that old desperate and crazed love

caught up in the maze of love the hazy craze of love thought it was good, thought it was real

thought it w a s but it wasn't love

I just don't know Where i should go

I walk away from self-serving •undeserving •constantly hurting me love• deserting me love

You said, I said, we said but...

Slowly Surely how to walk away from love?

Song Choice: Wonderman- Tinie Tempah ft. Ellie Goulding

Download: Hulkshare.com Tinie Tempah Feat. Ellie Goulding - Wonderman (CDQ ...

0 Won't Stop Screaming Til' It's Over & You Surrender

I'll Scream to Subdue the Pain.
I'm head over heels above 100 decibels,
My head's about to explode & I feel like you've put me in Hell
If My pitch could rupture the tendons that hold his heart in place I would only bellow a little longer&louder so that they tore just as mine did when I took the chance to let you in.
I'd increase the pressure of my melody to which only my Sorrow combined knows the disdain.

Because only you feel the pain and only you are capable of numbing me. from this solitude that I feel when these gray walls contract systematically beneath the thin sheet of glycerin that covers them so auspiciously. 

So while I parade my gloom on you at every opportunity it get. You may not like nor be intrigued by the fact that this affair appears to be cyclical at least to me. I do it so i can tell how your feeling like i'm a psychic that can read into your emotions althought you're miles away and through the technological parallels that separate us. You make me scream, in so many ways.. in my dreams, emotional physical,sexual, metaphorical

&& only I know. because no-one else knows what goes on when these two rose-pink sheets separate, yet they remain so unpredictable in everything that they say.

* I thought I lost you but it's clear you only went on a break and I needed something more depressing to drive me back into my emotional tirade of heartbroken poetry and solemnity before I could regress and get over this again.

This man inside me,

Screams for refuge,

He's locked within me

And wants to be set free




He often tells me

There's a world of opportunity

But I can't be afraid to turn against society,




They've been teaching Us

to lock that person up

And no good will come from climbing out the box,




So he wispers silently

To me when I'm asleep

And only in my dreams

Can I trully set him free 




Its frightening its scary

The intimate lust he's made me feel

To forget about the barriers

And become a warrior




To give in to my instincts

Explore the deepest sensations

Secrets of the garden unmentioned




Sex, love, the aromatic juices as I go deeper,

Till we both whimper,

And discover the mysterious wonders of the tongue

Empty my heart out to each and everyone

And when its over and done




Ask myself the question

Is this freedom?

Title Song:

• Temper Trap- Sweet Disposition

"Is this freedom?"

Lyrics:               

Sweet disposition
Never too soon
Oh reckless abandon
Like no one's
Watching you

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh

Chorus
Just stay there
Cause I'll be comin over
And while our bloods still young
It's so young
It runs
And we won't stop til it's over
Won't stop to surrender

Songs of desperation
I played them for you
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh

Chorus:
Just stay there
Cause I'll be comin over
And while our bloods still young
It's so young
It runs
And we won't stop til it's over
Won't stop to surrender

A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs (won't stop til it's over)
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs(won't stop til it's over)
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs (won't stop til it's over)
A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A moment, a love
A moment, a love (won't stop to surrender).

Song Lists:

• Scream- Timbaland ft. Keri Hilson
• Hurts Me- Keri Hilson
• Green Eyes- Coldplay
• Gone Away- Coldplay
• 4 am - Kaskade

Much Love & Appreciation to Courtney Saral Betty